Lately I have been a lot more emotional than before... and I don´t know if that is a good or a bad sign, anyway, it has been three years already and is still strange just to wake up and see what day is, of course you should already know that I don´t need a calendar because until now everytime the time reach this day i feel weird, I feel a little pain in my hand like my fucking hand is waiting for your call... you see, is weird.
Anyway, I think is more weird to write all this like if you could read it, at this point I don´t know what to believe... but I guess is my own teraphy to keep me safe(?). Like I was writting, the last year was... productive, maybe not in a economical way but in a emotional way and I bet you would be happy if you knew that I actually finish that bipolar circle, after like five years? I´m finally free and even if at the beginning it hurt like hell now is pretty good, I mean is weird but I think is the best, at least that is what I want to think. Well, maybe you would not be happy about this after all the "but you should be together" shit that you always said about us but believe me, the things change a lot the last year and it was enought, we cried a lot too because we are very stupid people and you see, he did not said the right things either I, so is over and this time is for real.
I know I´m writting a lot of nonsenses but I can´t help it, my head is a mess right now, my own fault for keep one promise that should be already broken, I´m this fool, you know that too. And yeah, I´m in my house right now cuz im feeling like shit today, maybe is something wrong in my head... but no, it hurts in my chest, the same way it did three years ago ... tomorrow will be another day.
I must admit that I miss to talk with you...
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